The Last Race of this Season
Andrew just finished his outdoor track season. His last race was Friday – Good Friday – in Charlotte. Thankful for the GPS that got me there, and,
more importantly, showed me the way out in pouring rain! It was a tough race to watch. He was going for a PR. We are thankful for the bests he has had in
the 3000 and 5000 this year. He had a
slight knee injury and did a lot of pool running. He also had some respiratory illness that we
cannot seem to stop even when we watch and know it’s probably coming! But as his mom, I wanted this last race to be
the best. After the first couple of
laps, it was obvious it would not be.
His arms were stretched out far pulling his legs along – legs that just
would not cooperate. Thankfully, Andrew
just knew it was a tough race and kept on going. He was disappointed but had a great attitude
about it. His time was not his best, but
it was not terrible either. I told him later
that he had no idea what it took for him to run that race like that and that I
appreciated that about him. He just
smiled and told me thanks.
I have gone back and read some of my earlier posts and like
the ones that are not negative. I can
remember how I felt writing some, and then I wonder how I felt writing
others. I think my heart is leaning more
towards thankful – even though so many thing still seem unsettled. Maybe I am adjusting to being in this waiting
room of life – where I can truly put down the worry and let God handle it.
Just last night, I cried as I told Pete one of my deepest
fears and frustrations. It’s not a
secret, but rarely do I speak it out loud.
And of course it affects one of my children and my concerns for his
future. I have worried about his future
years ahead of time and every step of the way.
I know I have to keep turning him over.
And I do. It’s taking it all back
that I need to try harder to keep from doing!
We have been studying Joshua in Sunday School and took a
quick break to have an Easter study the week before Easter. With Joshua, we find all of the promises that
God is with us and not to be afraid or discouraged. The promises assure us that He goes before
us. (Deut. 31:6, 8, Joshua 1:9 are just
a couple). Then we studied and talked
about what God did for us. As I read
something from a book, I got so emotional, I could hardly talk (much to the
dismay of my children who were in the class!).
But thinking about the night right before Jesus was arrested and how
much He endured for us, I think an emotional response was the only response
because I was really thinking about what I was reading. I had read it before so I had already
pondered it, but the stark reality of what He did just rose up and hit me. What a blessing.
So days can be hard, for many reasons. But I can choose to be thankful and trusting
and faithful. And I need to remember to
do that always in every situation.
Andrew will take a little break and then train for cross
country in the fall.
The other boys are good.
Sam has had some little illnesses off and on. I read his doctor report from cardiology and
let the thankfulness just flood me. I did
not take that report for granted.
We are looking forward to Peter being home soon. And Will is still busy outside doing whatever
he can. I am thankful for the days he is
not climbing trees and pray harder on the days when I know he is.
Thanks again for praying.
We feel it and appreciate it!