Andrew - Please keep praying!

Andrew goes back to the immunologist in October. He is doing okay, but he is not running anywhere near his best times. We want him to be better and healthy, but it's a killer to see him struggling so when he runs.

I flooded the altar at church this morning with tears. I carry a lot of worry about these guys that I give over to God and promptly take back. Things bother me so much. I want to give Andrew his independence, but I also need to keep taking care of him. I keep praying but need to stay more and more and more in God's word to show me what to do and how to wade through these waters with him. It's overwhelming. I cry because he does not have what I want him to have. He cannot do what I think he deserves to do right now. It hurts. It hurts my heart and my gut. And it pops up a lot - the hurt, the fear, the pain. So I need to keep remembering to turn it over. God knows Andrew better than even I do. He knows what He has in store for Him. So I need to trust more too.

So after I left the altar today, I resolved to do better ~ to let God do what He does. And to trust and try to have the peace that He CAN give.

I talk about Andrew all of the time. He would fall over if he knew how much! But he does appreciate prayers and concerns. He just does not want attention for his illnesses. He doesn't mind a little for a great race. He ran about a minute slower Saturday than he did earlier in the season, but he kept going. He did not drop out and blame it on a cold or a hurt leg. He did what he could even though he was disappointed. I don't think he was embarrassed, but I know he is disappointed.

Now if I were in the hospital with Andrew trying to fight pneumonia, I would be happy if he could go to school and may not even think about running. But, thankfully, we are not. He is living his life, and I just want him to be able to do some things he enjoys. He does not require a lot. He would not even let me get him something for lunch Saturday. He was worn out, but he did not want any special attention! He does not get that from me!

Thanks for praying for Andrew - for his health and his goals. We still would love to see him shoot up out of all of his clothes. I do know one thing for sure right now. The absolute worst thing to say to me in passing is that being short is not so bad! No, it's not. But I have worked and prayed for 14 years for Andrew to be where he should be and am not giving up yet. I want to, but I cannot. So please pray for that. I think if he could shoot up, it would take care of some other issues too.

Thanks again! Have a great fall week!